Perfect mom? Nope

Smell of milk
Smell of pee
Smell of poop

So if all those smell take turns on you, how would nice flowery scented perfume will have a chance to shine? You can spray and wait 30 minute before the babies start their show....and their smell takes control.

However, I love baby smell....the masham masham smell always the best and I know it wont lasts long. Someday when they grow up, it'll disappear.

Ever since become a mom...especially a mom of two ( for my melons twinny ), I often follow page of twincies mommy, triplet , quad and even a singleton baby mother. I also keen to follow pages that teach about sleeping baby, nutrition and such. Wow so much of being a mother huh. Back then I am more toward Kpop website. No more No more.

Yeppp still Kpopers inside me exist its just I had to switch the priority. My twins is my everything nowadays. huhuhu.

Being a mom....of course we want all the best thing in the world for our kids but being in a society that full of judgement, it might be challenging.

~~ "Hey you so poor can't you find job and feed your kid more...aren't you feel sympathy for them?'

~~ " My gosh is your milk enough. Go feed formulas for god sake. The baby starving".

~~ "You shouldn't do this that, you must do this that blablabla".

~~ "During my time, I did the best and my baby behave so well."

~~ "Why your baby so ugly. Why your baby so bad." (For god sake baby is a baby how can you define baby as 'bad'? )

~~ And the list goes on!!!!


People !!!!

You are killing the mommy. Not everyone can digest your remark that sometimes sound super harsh. Nope. Speaking of giving advise, do it will full manner. Not in comparison language. Just don't.

Especially toward the new mommy which of course have zero knowledge...they need your experience to be share just as reference not necessary mandatory to follow if not 'Bad mommy' sticker place all over the forehead.

Come on. Stop judging.

lemme judge you back.

Sometimes social media plays a huge part in giving extra knowlege but they also can kill the mommy slef esteem. Especially when they saw many other mom who look so fine so pretty so gorgeous sexy curvy with perfect baby and kids around, with huge and comfy house and awesome people around them....and here I am sitting all alone feel like potato 😂

I bet every woman want the best for their love ones especially a mother feelig toward the babies. Who can deny mothers love. Its the greatest of all after God's love.


To all mommy out there. Keep your chin up.
You don't have to be perfect. To your kids eye, you are already perfect enough. Unbeatable, superior, superwoman, heroes!!. So don't feel too bad if you can't achieve what other mommy can. Don't smash your head when you can't provide like what other mommy provide.

Just provide loves. Thats all what the babies need.

Perfect mom didn't exist but irreplaceable mom do exist in every family. No one can replace you because you are womderful woman and mommy.

New life and melons ♥

Assalamualaikum ♥

Entering 2019 wity mixed emotion and feeling and yeaaah I wasn't all that focus on 1st jan 2019 since I was hospitalized and in pain. Lol...what a way to start a year.

Happy new year ( although its late )

Often we have several things change in life in each such as last year, I became someone wife and this year, I become a mother. Not one but two... Phewwhh. My twins are safely born alhamdulillah but instead of becoming 2019 babies, they born earlier. So 2018 babies that is.

I called them melons as they already so round and cute and adorable like melons since in the womb. Hahaha.. the other nickname for them is cuttlefishball and crabmeatball... I am strange mother.

My melons born approximately 1.16am on 26th December ...the second melon followed by 15minutes later. So I officially become a mother that night, a day after christmas ( dramatic song echoed )

How was the journey of giving birth?
Let me summarize it as if I am telling in detail, this entry will be too long to read.
The pain is indescribable... But the closer one is feel like your body being cut into two. It was sooooo painful. My water broke 12 hours earlier for first twin hence they had no choice but to induce me 12 hours later when the pain started.

From my bed, I could hear other woman scream as well...various type of scream and it doesn't really make me feel better. Hahahaha... When the doctors came to me and start all the procedures, only Allah knows.

To make it short... The journey ended three hours after that. Losing so much blood and unable to stand up, husband still not arrived ( he was away ) and I was all alone, feeling numb, pain and hungry...thirsty to the maximum limit. Luckily nurse gave me chocolate drink. I drfited sleep inside labour room.

An hour later, my husband came and apologized. It wasnt his fault, the festive season makes all bus ticket sold out. He tried his best though. .

I am still in pain and they tranferred me to postnatal ward. When my husband ask me what I want...I only think of milo drink. My throat dried and all I felt was super thirsty as if all liquid inside my body gone. He ran to get me some....

Bubibubi melons♥

I only meet my baby three days later. They have been warded at Nicu ( 2nd baby for further checkup due to crying late as soon as being pulled from my tummy ) and SCN (to check for glucose as I am diabetic mother )...while in postnatal, I was having blood tranfusion too because my hb dropped drastically to 6.6....

It was one experience which I won't forget easily...
Will write more later okay. Someone is crying now. Oh goshhhh~