New life and melons ♥

Assalamualaikum ♥

Entering 2019 wity mixed emotion and feeling and yeaaah I wasn't all that focus on 1st jan 2019 since I was hospitalized and in pain. Lol...what a way to start a year.

Happy new year ( although its late )

Often we have several things change in life in each such as last year, I became someone wife and this year, I become a mother. Not one but two... Phewwhh. My twins are safely born alhamdulillah but instead of becoming 2019 babies, they born earlier. So 2018 babies that is.

I called them melons as they already so round and cute and adorable like melons since in the womb. Hahaha.. the other nickname for them is cuttlefishball and crabmeatball... I am strange mother.

My melons born approximately 1.16am on 26th December ...the second melon followed by 15minutes later. So I officially become a mother that night, a day after christmas ( dramatic song echoed )

How was the journey of giving birth?
Let me summarize it as if I am telling in detail, this entry will be too long to read.
The pain is indescribable... But the closer one is feel like your body being cut into two. It was sooooo painful. My water broke 12 hours earlier for first twin hence they had no choice but to induce me 12 hours later when the pain started.

From my bed, I could hear other woman scream as well...various type of scream and it doesn't really make me feel better. Hahahaha... When the doctors came to me and start all the procedures, only Allah knows.

To make it short... The journey ended three hours after that. Losing so much blood and unable to stand up, husband still not arrived ( he was away ) and I was all alone, feeling numb, pain and hungry...thirsty to the maximum limit. Luckily nurse gave me chocolate drink. I drfited sleep inside labour room.

An hour later, my husband came and apologized. It wasnt his fault, the festive season makes all bus ticket sold out. He tried his best though. .

I am still in pain and they tranferred me to postnatal ward. When my husband ask me what I want...I only think of milo drink. My throat dried and all I felt was super thirsty as if all liquid inside my body gone. He ran to get me some....

Bubibubi melons♥

I only meet my baby three days later. They have been warded at Nicu ( 2nd baby for further checkup due to crying late as soon as being pulled from my tummy ) and SCN (to check for glucose as I am diabetic mother )...while in postnatal, I was having blood tranfusion too because my hb dropped drastically to 6.6....

It was one experience which I won't forget easily...
Will write more later okay. Someone is crying now. Oh goshhhh~

Allah plan is always better

Salam ♥

Today, I was supposed to have my regular blood test checkup for my bsp diabetes ( while pregnancy a.k.a gdm ) and I arrived at the clinic quite early.

Its because last night my husband went to his company party so I slept over at my friend house to chit chat etc and he fetch me early in the morning before drop me to the clinic. It was too early but nevermind, I don't mind waiting.

Sadly and unlucky today ( Tuesday ) wasn't supposed to be a blood test day as the system have change from tue/thur to mon/wed. Hence the nurse apologized and ask if I can change to tomorrow and again, I don't mind and not even feel annoyed or mad. I seriously feel ok with that. Alhamdulillah.

Then , since I already fast and forbid myself from eat and drink since 10pm previous night, I was so hungry so I decided to go for breakfast in front clinic (lorry stall ) as their breakfast is sooooo yummy and I love it. Somehow I don't really have much money left in my wallet but put aside, I can used final emergency money Rm10 which I slit behind my phone case and just eat.

Oh for those who wondering where is my husband, he went back home and sleep so I drove alone. Haha.. nevermind. Plus he looked so tired.

Back to the breakfast story. Since all tables are occupy, I encourage myself to ask one couple to join them at their table as they have two empty spot left. They invited me to sit with them and we start chit chatting while eating.

Fast forward, so the husband is a general manager for a vendor company that handle MAS Cargo airlines and I told him that I am also have safety officer background (way of promoting myself to the stranger 😂)...and to my next surprise is he impress with my what I have and he interested in offering a job to me ( at least to try insyaAllah ) after I give birth and finish my confinement if I'm still interested in finding job.

I was so overwhelmed for having this chances because its quite tough to find a job and I tried so haed yet none seems to come my way. He said he have two empty spot and he can save one for me because its a backup staff spot. No matter what, I already feel so much grateful I don't know how to express it.

His wife also encourage me to try and they both really kind to me. 😢😢

Lastly, they even pay for my food and bid goodbye after gave me business card just in case for contact purpose. I was so touched.

Allah helped me.
What did I do to deserve this 😢
Its not yet a job but an opportunity for job is already consider as huge enough for me.
Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.

Thank you Allah.

I don't know what kind of plan He write for me as I still have the part in me wanted to just do 'job at home' so I can watch over my babies but nevertheless, only Allah knows whats best for me.

I will ask Allah ♥

So guys, do pray for me in this matter as well as birthing part. Counting days and clock keep on ticking. Hope I can deliver my twins safely.

Alhamdulillah for everything ya Allah.

My V1 family, my ambition

Salam ♥

As the day goes by, one by one my friend slowly entering the actual right track on becoming pilot.

I have a group ( we call it V1 clan/gang ) and we have like 7 members in that group including me but I was the only roses among torn. hahhaa.. awww 😘

Actually its more like I'm the mother of 6 naughty son. 😂

• We used to be ( all of us ) lost in a space of chasing our dream but alhamdulillah after many years ( indeed many years I tell you ) , when the journey and unexplainable tiredness has taking its toll, slowly one by one are stepping into flying school. Glorious, alhamdulillah for them.

Yep, currently 3 over 7 are running towards it while the rest are cheering using pompom to them and still strugling for our place as well. Of course we will find our way too.. current cost is too expensive I doubt my kidney would cover all expenses 😂

As for me, I kinda have to laid back and slow down a bit as I'm in my final trimester of pregnancy but fear not, the fire in me still the same. Thanks to the boys. Each time one of us felt down, we encourage and get stronger again. It will be an absolute lie to say all of us are in positive and fiery ambition all the time. Sometimes, negative cold of winter almost put the fire in us down. Yep, thats human.

sexy vehicles

How did we know each other?... To be honest we came from different background, place and our age is different except me with Hafiz darat and Remy.  Faris is the youngest brother. Anuar and Hafiz laut is a bit younger than me. Dont ask my age 😂 you know woman hates two question ( age and weight.. lol )

credits : google for indiGo cadet pics. 

We came from background of airport authorities, ex airlines, fresh graduate and of course oil and gas. We've known each other by mutual etc. Like some for taking cadetship exam last 2012 for Airasia and some from Flylah forum ( I am Mir Mira, hello 🙌🙌🙌 ) ...so to make it short, we all end up being friends a.k.a families by Allah plan. Some already married and some still singles. And why am I mentioning that 😅

alolo

Our goals are the same. To become a pilot. It was an ultimate goal and what set us bond to each other. We might not come from rich family or stable background hence our struggle is different. I know everyone have their own struggles.

The sky has no limits.

All the talk only based on aircraft and sky 😂😂😂

Alhamdulillah finally three of us almost make it through and true.  Faris and Aziz with Malaysia Airlines cadet, Anuar with private course at Sabah... it wasn't easy for them and its taking so much energy in them too... There is a time when I see them almost giving up but naaaah, how can they give up. The rest four of us wont allow that while we're also still fighting for the spot, the three of them never stop cheering. we have each other back and I know its Allah gift to have such companion.

congrats young one 👏

 A few month ago, when I received an email from unknown young man talking about his struggles to become a pilot until he ask if he should stop or not, I'd say, ask yourself if you want it badly enough.

We never know what Allah plan for us. Some have it easy some have it hard. Some earn it fast and some earn it a bit late but as long as the clock still ticking. Do not give up!

While doing whatever stuff you're doing now, keep in mind and heart that you are still running toward your dream. Even its late and seems so unsure, but your effort is clear and real .Keep it up!!!

YES I AM. 

Oh before I end this, for those who wonder what is V1,

Wish me luck.
Pray for me and the rest V1 and all aspiring pilot. ♥ We need loves 🙌

My 'everything' first time to Korea

Hello ladies and gentleman..

A very very good evening to all of you and assalamualaikum to those who are muslims.
How was your day today anyway?

While waiting for isya pray time, I lay down lazily like a polar bear on my bed and my mind reminisce Korea moment.

So much of my memory preoccupied on memory from my multiple Korea trip experience.

How i really missed korea.... Huuu

Husband pose so handsomely beneath windy chill sun

My latest trip is my honeymoon trip. It was quite different from other trip because going to a places with husband is not as havoc as the one with crazy headed bunch of friends.

Simply because honeymoon itself plays a different role in portraying vibe of the trip but for all that matter, both of us love the food so much and the scenic environment too.

Gazing toward the sky~ 

It was my husband first ever long haul trip and his first time also stepping his foot onto Kimchi land. How sweet.

There is a few hassle moment when his shoes protest ( lol ) so we had no choice but to go to Dongdaemun shoes area to buy him a pair of new shoes. Comfy yet affordable and he loves it.

Can he really contain his excitement 😂

The shoes are undeniably comfortable yet so stylish. He loves it so much....really loves it I guess. 

Perhaps whats make it more fun is he enjoyed the food as much as I did. Since we visited Seoul around March so its still end of winter. Hence, winter fruits are everywhere. 

One of my ultimate is of course Korea strawberry....heyyyy it was fantastically sweet and delicious. Unlike the one I taste in my country. Perhaps the weather and soil is good for sweet strawberry growth.

And  there is also one newly food I tried which I never tried during my previous trips. Its none other than fried tteok... I got to taste it at Tongin Market. And it was hella delicious even my husband loves it ( he did not like the taste of normal tteokbukki tho )

If I ever going back to Korea next time, we will definitely munch this food again whiwe joining dosirak cafe activities ( old coin exchange food activity ). Period! 

Yums...we took spicy and soy sauce coated.

Both super yums.

Look at that....!!!!!

Although we our trip was for seven days but we only felt super cold weather on the first three days and mostly because of chilly wind. The rest of the trip still cold but with sun so its just so-so.


How we wish the snow still falling. Heheh

So this is all for now.
Going to write more later.
Seee ya!




~mokomira~

First trimester

Hello everyone

Assalamualaikum to muslim reader and hello to all of you.
I've been meaning to write an entry about first trimester journey.  I'm still in the middle of it so naaahhh just let me spazz randomly.

Eversince I've detected myself pregnant and came to know that I was having a twin ( InsyaAllah ), I am so grateful and thankful. The journey nevertheless was tough and challenging.

I started having minor sickness ( vomit a lot on certai times ) but thankfully it was just super minor. But the painful experience that I face was my wholebody aching especially at pelvic area, miss v, backbone and uncomfortable on tummy part. Plus I frequently visit toilet to pee.

huh. tiring~


But still I can never stop feeling blessed and thankful. Its an experience and journey which will go away once I give birth. I've stories from my friends and their sickness are whole lot troublesome eventjough they have singleton pregnancy.


Seee....which favor from Allah which you deny?

Since I'm still stuck at first phase of trimester so it still to early to predict what happen next but phewwww.....in one month I've been going back and forth to hospital and clinic due to high risk pregnancy ( twins always out in high risk ).

I adore these cutey Amira and Amina ♥

Guys... wish me luck and pray for me.
I need all the support as truthfully I'm nervous.

Hopefully I can find a job or do something to earn money for saving as I have none right now. 😇


Alhamdulillah ♥


See ya~

Are we choosing the right one?

Sometimes we thought that marriage is a pathway and door to happiness. We ought to seek happiness within marriage however the bell doesn't ring the same way and same sound to everybody.

We never know.
We will never found out if the person infront of our eyes is the best one.

Some people are destined to have a suffer marriage and bad husband whilst some are lucky enough to have a good husband and wonderful marrital life.

Who on earth want to have a bad husband? Horrible life? Awful marriage?

Every woman desires is to have a fairytale-ish happiness life in marriage with good husband, sweet loving and caring.

Sad reality.

I don't know the statistic but I do know that there is quite number of marriage life encounter a suffers life. If you are Malaysian, you can seek a facebook group called KRT and read tons of published stories shared by sad wife/husband ( mostly wife ). And I believe there is so much more stories which are mot published by admins due to several reasons.

The question is...

How would you know if the husband/wife you choose is a good one?

If you are muslims then all you can do is istikharah and ask for Allah wisdom and opinion as He is the onethat hold the key to our destiny. We are human so we should rely on Him.

After that, make sure you alert with your spouse behavior. It is okay to do some investigation over his life through his friend and such as you willgive your life to him/her after this. Make that effort but don't go overboard.

If it happens that you found some damage point. Ask yourself! Do you think you can cope with that?

I give an example. Pornography.

Let me share you a story of a woman who met her fiance and found out he was addicted to pornography and sexy woman pictures. She had a word with him and he said it was his past and unfollow all stuff.

Until oneday, after many month since they got married, she found out that her husband is still doing that. He created different account to deceived her and little that he knows, Allah never hide the truth.Its just a matter of time. She also found out many other related to his fetish and addiction and yes, she did felt super disappointed and remorsed.

This is a good example how and why you should really do some background check on your future spouse. Its scary when its too late.


BUT !!!!

Don't blame the destiny,never blame yourself. Sometimes, no matter how you check you still found zero. There must be a serious reason why Allah hides the flaw and weakness as well as shitty attitude of that person.

Its a test! Its merely a test for you in dunya.

Embrace it. Whatever sadness filled your heart,talk to Almighty. Ask for his forgiveneas, ask for Him a strength, ask a pathway and road.

Talk to Allah and He never stop listen.

Marriage, bad or good, its written already. Its how you cope with that. If its better yo stay, then stay.If not, you know what to do. If you found his stupid action and fetish and felt that it was unbearable to handle, you need to ask yourself multiple times. Don't put love over life. For all that matter, Allah shall be priority. It must be that way.

Ask Allah, is it good to marry this person!?

Dear Nina convocation

Heyyy....

How are you guys doing?
I am currently lying down after eating lunch and today I cooked ayam masak merah or english jow to call it.eh....spicy chicken in red sauce?

Last week marked a convocation for my dear sister at Uitm Shah Alam.

She finished her diploma in physiotherapy field and currently further her study in the same field for degree level.

To Nina...all the best. I know you can do it. I'm sending you sisterhood vibe. lol

I guess time changes... when I had my own graduation, there's not much of photoshoot and beautiful outdoor. But student nowadays... phew.

Again...

Congratulationssss...

Bride To Be : Worrisome

Assalamualaikum and have a good Sunday people...

Yess time flies. All of suden its Sunday already. Tick tock tick tick now its getting nearer and nearer to my big day event
 pheww....can I step back ? *Worries*

I guess every bride worrisome is how if marriage that she chose to go for will be a good destination or bad one. Either you'll throw yourself in world-level hell or sweet heaven on earth. What do you think?

Its a super duper worrisome for me I don't know if its normal for others or its just me. You know me and my weird mental. And all of sudden I crave black pepper goat meat which I cook when I visited Doha bacl then. Lol, seeee how weird I am. My mind keep shifting here and there etc etc.

So guys and girls... If you can throw me some sort of advise regarding marriage and relationship, what would you say? I need an advise...and a comfort word too.

Deep in my heart I will put y faoth and trust to The Almighty Allah for bringing me closer to this fate. Be it good or bad, its a destiny.

Like most of islamic word I always read said.:

"Whatever happens to you life, it happens for good. Even if its not good to you now, your eyes just don't see it yet."


Allahu...
I walk my life on your plan.



-mokomira-

I lost my job but I gain life

One door is close... Plenty of doors are opening ~~


6 years ago, my young ambition side of me received an offer to work with that company. How does it felt? ...overwhelmed.
I seek for the job like maniac until I almost lost my hope. But I didnt....alhamdulillah.

Allah gave me the chances when I thought I didn't deserve any. Road chosen, life changing.

And I started working.

It was tough, it was hard. I cried everytime I feel like my body was unable to take more pressure. Its a tough job because it required me to carry, lift and handle huge and heavy luggage. Imagine the strength challenge. Being so weak ever since I was little, it was double hard for me.

But I stand still...because of my amnition, dream and I am not a quitter. Nope.

Fast forward....so many things happen and I am so blessed with all the chances given to me.Back then, I never thought I will be able to join them, as part of their team but I did.
See how unimaginable one life could be, when you believe in yourself.

It comes to the time when I had to leave them, the journey. Feels like one door is closing shut but fear not, that mean the other doors open widely.

My dream still goes on, still going strong. Will I ever stop? Nope.
Do I feel sad that these event happen? Yes.
Am I regret? .... Yes and no. No because that's how life is. Certain good things are meant to let go. Yes because I have put too much effort, life and time on the job that I actually losing my life. I failed to attend many wedding invitation of hangouts and such. I wrongly put work over life and family.

Wrong decision often lead to the right one. Don't worry.

Human and their judgement

People criticise

People .

They also human....human with feelings. Human with brain...human with heart and soul. Why do we judge?

I remember when I was a kid, I care a lot lesser to whatever people said and think of me. I didn't give muh thought nor even giving up upon words which belittle me.

So I have no idea what is happening to me when I grow up. I care so much of people opinion it sometimes lead me to do fulfilling people expectation instead of live my own life.

What has happening to me?

Since when people opinion define me?

No we should never let that happen to our life. Don't let other people control your life becayse for god sake its your own life so God has giving you a remote control for it. Why would you pass the controller toward someone else. 

Right?

-mokomira-

Bride To Be : Prior to wedding

Good morning.

Salam alayk to those who can answer me.
So its monday morning and monday always related to blues. Monday blues.

Since I will get marry soon enough I am in the midst of preparation from here and there.... Phewww.

So much to do.
So many things to say.
Lots of process.
Money..... 🍃🍃🍃🍃

I keep on reading things related to marriage and most of it lead me to read a book called
'Man from Mars, Woman from Venus'.. ahahaha imagine me reading those book which I really care before.

Good knowledge. I'm still in the middle of reading it. Will definitely do some review and thought over the book.

I also want to buy a book called 'Why man marry bitches' lmao....
Donate me some money please 😂😂...okay okay just wish me luck so I can earn money from here and there and able to buy those books.


Love ya.

Nursing job in middle east country?

Hey everyone.

Its Mokomira. I'm back...and I just want to babble some random topic about nursing job. Nursing profession. A nurse.

It may not sound as huge as doctor but hey I beg ypur pardon, nurse is as amazing as the doctors. Without them, how can you have smooth hospitalization process and treatments. Doctors need them as much as we need doctors and without nurse, I can't imagine.

Still... Often I heard some people belittle with this profession. How sad is that.

I have my little brother who is now taking a Nursing school at PPUM ( Pusat Perubatan Universiti Malaya ). He make us proud. I remember the day we sent him to the university. And now he's in the second year and soon to finish his study and start his nurse job.

Yep... Male nurse. I think we generally need more and more male nurses. Its a tough job and sometimes male strength are so important and overpower woman nature strength. To boys....don't be shy. This profession is noble.

I used to read an article about job opportunity for nursing in middle east country. Its a huge chances and most of the hospitals are open for foreigner nurses. It will be tough living in the country which is different from hometown but if you are up for challenge and sucker for experience, go for it.!!

The salary currently if I'm not mistaken are RM15000 basic but this is not confirm. I jist reshared from what I've read from an interview with ex Middle east nurse with local magazine.

Imagine... Basic are just basic. The other accomodation some more. Whewww..
So for those who are young wild and free (lol) go and give a try. I always think that living abroad is interesting. Wallahualam.


What do you think?





-mokomira-

Jojoe

Good morning.

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone...

How are you guys doing. For those who read this, thank you for visiting my blog and read. 

I love you...

I am now currently at my bestfriend house. She and I used to go to same school and became a classmate. We even had been sitting side by side and do so many naughty and troublesome stuff. lol

Jojoe... she is one amazing lady. Currently she was doing her business in henna doodle art. Its amazing I tell you. ..

Jojoe used to work as engineer, study until higher level but there was one time when she thought it wasn't what she loves to do particularly. 

Things happened and fast forward, she is now having her own small business, open a booth, have thounsands of followers through her facebook. 

Jojor and her baby Han...lol cranky act.

Jojoe is an example of walking past a heavy storm won't kill you. Her passion in art is wow..... she loves to draw and now she did what she loves. Even earn money from it. What an example. 

Good thing is ... Jojoe never stop learning. She grow and keep growing. 

All the best to you buddy. I will always support you just like how you support me. Don't worry I will ramble a lot about your product and service.

-mokomira-