Good news

Hi everyone...

Salam alayk to all muslims and hello to everyone ♥ 

Last month, I had received a good news. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah thank you to Allah the Almighty God. 

I was in the verge of breakdown era when so many things happen in my life plus roller coaster of emotion regardless everything. I applied so many job but none of it come back to me with response. Not accepting neither rejecting so it was saddening.

There is a point where I felt like I am such a loser born as a loser and live my life as a loser. What a hideous way to interpret our gracious life given by God. I forgot to be thankful. 

Instead of thinking on what i dont have, I should focus on what I already have. We're all human and every human have that time when they felt useless... All that matter is get back up! I repeat , get back up !!! 

And... When I was all in saddness period, Allah sent me good news. Not in form of job and money but two little angel in my womb. 

I am pregnant.

I am pregnant with twins.

Twins pregnancy.

Oh my god. 

Allah !!! 

I always want and love and admire twins since I was very young. Twin is special. 

I know I was late in menstrual but knowing myself its not shockinh but since its Ramadhan and fasting month I'm quite curious on counting my cycle as its a sign of no fasting ( lady specialty in islam woohoo ).... But then I realized the cycle didnt come at all. I checked my menstrual apps and noticed I was 13 days late. Still not suspicious but something inside me wanted to buy UPT so much so I asked my husband to follow me and buy it. We didn't really expect anything at all since there's already few times we thought baby is coming and suddenly menstrual happen so no more expectation ok. 

So after bought the UPT we went back home and sleep. I dont't know why I woke ip so early at 3am to test it. Usually for sahur time I woke up 4am above to prepare food. With a sleepy step I entered bathroom and check.

Not long after that I saw two lines. Two freaking line I rubbed my eyes continuously and shook my husband to wake him up. Haha...sorry. 

He with super sleepy face and voice was so dumbfounded and confuse but when he got it, he hugged me and went back to sleep. 

I am sooo surprised I don't feel like sleeping and prepare my husband sahur food...and wake him up again. 

We decided to go to clinik for confirmation checkup. I received a positive remark from nurses and need to come to clinic again to open pink book.

Fast forward after open my pink book, I wemt again to clinic for blood test and doctor scanning session. It was my third visit since the first one. 

When I entered the doctor room,I Noticed there was two female doctor. Mine was at the back seat so I sat down in front of her. Husband waited outside. After finished Jotted down some stuff, she asked me to call for husband so he can witness the scanning session. 

I called up for my husband and lay down on the bench, ready to scan. She applied that cold gel I  don't know the name and start putting the machine on me ( sorry, also don't know the name. She raised her eyebrows all of sudden.

"Eh....its a twin"

I am so speechless but refuse to believe it eventhough she kept moving those thing on my tummy. She showed the two different sac to my husband as well...

When she saw me still not accepting the fact, she called for other doctor to confirm and the other doctor also said the same thing.

"Its a twin...wow"

And tadaaaaaaa....I saw one of my twin moving so cutely. Awwwww. 

Of course still shocked but slowly accepting the news...and today I am waiting for my fourth checkup with specialist. 

Since I carried twins so extra appointment are inevitable. 

Please pray for me my friends...

Kind of worried... 

Nevertheless, its a rezq from Allah. 

May Allah gave me strength to face upcoming days. 

Its a sudden change to my body...continuously aching and once in a while vomitting and don't have appetite to eat... Whewwww what a start. 

Again... Wish me luck and I hope your day is great ♥

Some says pregnant woman should look for cute babies picyure over and over again so here I am... Awwwww those cheeky smile. 

Are we choosing the right one?

Sometimes we thought that marriage is a pathway and door to happiness. We ought to seek happiness within marriage however the bell doesn't ring the same way and same sound to everybody.

We never know.
We will never found out if the person infront of our eyes is the best one.

Some people are destined to have a suffer marriage and bad husband whilst some are lucky enough to have a good husband and wonderful marrital life.

Who on earth want to have a bad husband? Horrible life? Awful marriage?

Every woman desires is to have a fairytale-ish happiness life in marriage with good husband, sweet loving and caring.

Sad reality.

I don't know the statistic but I do know that there is quite number of marriage life encounter a suffers life. If you are Malaysian, you can seek a facebook group called KRT and read tons of published stories shared by sad wife/husband ( mostly wife ). And I believe there is so much more stories which are mot published by admins due to several reasons.

The question is...

How would you know if the husband/wife you choose is a good one?

If you are muslims then all you can do is istikharah and ask for Allah wisdom and opinion as He is the onethat hold the key to our destiny. We are human so we should rely on Him.

After that, make sure you alert with your spouse behavior. It is okay to do some investigation over his life through his friend and such as you willgive your life to him/her after this. Make that effort but don't go overboard.

If it happens that you found some damage point. Ask yourself! Do you think you can cope with that?

I give an example. Pornography.

Let me share you a story of a woman who met her fiance and found out he was addicted to pornography and sexy woman pictures. She had a word with him and he said it was his past and unfollow all stuff.

Until oneday, after many month since they got married, she found out that her husband is still doing that. He created different account to deceived her and little that he knows, Allah never hide the truth.Its just a matter of time. She also found out many other related to his fetish and addiction and yes, she did felt super disappointed and remorsed.

This is a good example how and why you should really do some background check on your future spouse. Its scary when its too late.


BUT !!!!

Don't blame the destiny,never blame yourself. Sometimes, no matter how you check you still found zero. There must be a serious reason why Allah hides the flaw and weakness as well as shitty attitude of that person.

Its a test! Its merely a test for you in dunya.

Embrace it. Whatever sadness filled your heart,talk to Almighty. Ask for his forgiveneas, ask for Him a strength, ask a pathway and road.

Talk to Allah and He never stop listen.

Marriage, bad or good, its written already. Its how you cope with that. If its better yo stay, then stay.If not, you know what to do. If you found his stupid action and fetish and felt that it was unbearable to handle, you need to ask yourself multiple times. Don't put love over life. For all that matter, Allah shall be priority. It must be that way.

Ask Allah, is it good to marry this person!?

Bride To Be : Worrisome

Assalamualaikum and have a good Sunday people...

Yess time flies. All of suden its Sunday already. Tick tock tick tick now its getting nearer and nearer to my big day event
 pheww....can I step back ? *Worries*

I guess every bride worrisome is how if marriage that she chose to go for will be a good destination or bad one. Either you'll throw yourself in world-level hell or sweet heaven on earth. What do you think?

Its a super duper worrisome for me I don't know if its normal for others or its just me. You know me and my weird mental. And all of sudden I crave black pepper goat meat which I cook when I visited Doha bacl then. Lol, seeee how weird I am. My mind keep shifting here and there etc etc.

So guys and girls... If you can throw me some sort of advise regarding marriage and relationship, what would you say? I need an advise...and a comfort word too.

Deep in my heart I will put y faoth and trust to The Almighty Allah for bringing me closer to this fate. Be it good or bad, its a destiny.

Like most of islamic word I always read said.:

"Whatever happens to you life, it happens for good. Even if its not good to you now, your eyes just don't see it yet."


Allahu...
I walk my life on your plan.



-mokomira-

Bride To Be : Prior to wedding

Good morning.

Salam alayk to those who can answer me.
So its monday morning and monday always related to blues. Monday blues.

Since I will get marry soon enough I am in the midst of preparation from here and there.... Phewww.

So much to do.
So many things to say.
Lots of process.
Money..... 🍃🍃🍃🍃

I keep on reading things related to marriage and most of it lead me to read a book called
'Man from Mars, Woman from Venus'.. ahahaha imagine me reading those book which I really care before.

Good knowledge. I'm still in the middle of reading it. Will definitely do some review and thought over the book.

I also want to buy a book called 'Why man marry bitches' lmao....
Donate me some money please 😂😂...okay okay just wish me luck so I can earn money from here and there and able to buy those books.


Love ya.